I hope I haven't given the impression that life is all gain with no pain. Because it's not. At least that's not been my experience. The last few years have been especially hard. I can't say I'm ready to share it all just yet.
We've grown a lot. We learned what was really important.
Our family. Photo taken October 2007
We feel like we are slowly rising above the water that's tried to keep us down. That tried to pull us under. It's true, Life as we knew it will never be the same. And I'm happy about that. That girl is gone. A new one, one with a stronger faith, a little more confidence and a reassurance that He really does hold me in the palm of His hand, has emerged.
Isaac, January 2008
I'm thankful for a God who loves us. He loves us so much He changed our circumstances so we could grow, so we could be better. I'm thankful for His promises. And I'm thankful for His patience especially when we thought our faith was in Him when really it was in our bank account. I'm thankful He's in control. I'm really thankful I'm not.
I don't know if anyone comes here, if anyone reads what I put down but if there is someone out there who is unsure, who is maybe a little scared about tomorrow, trust me, I've been there. I've been the mama crying over her baby's crib because I didn't know what the next day would bring. I can't say that everything will turn out just the way we hope but I can say that my relationship with Jesus Christ is what sustains me and He knows what I need better than I do. Always and forever, He is my one true love, my best friend.
He knows my heart, the desires of my heart, my fears, my joys and He's caught every tear I've ever cried. Even when I couldn't feel Him near, even when I doubted He cared about my one little life He was there. And He's there for you too. He's never lost sight of me and He never will. His eyes are on you, yes you and He wants to bless you more then you could ever imagine.
I know because that's exactly the life I'm living. It's our own kind of perfect.
Even the sparrow has found a home,
and the swallow a nest for herself,
where she may have her young-
a place near your altar,
O Lord Almighty, my King and my God.