Where I Want To Be

I was never the outspoken one.  Quiet, people pleaser, never one to ruffle any feathers. I was awkward in school, didn't belong to any certain clique.  Another face in the crowd. I'm not complaining, I liked it that way.  I've always been more of a people watcher than a look at me type anyway. I'm a late bloomer, still blooming in fact. I mean, seriously, I'm just now venturing out from having more than three hairstyles...down, ponytail, bun-type thing. I bought lipstick for the first time this year. Yes, I am 33. And I've worn it once. I didn't go to college, never really felt like I found my groove.

But this? This mama thing? I love it. I feel like it's my thing. I'm not saying I'm good at it, I'm just saying I love it.  I knew I would never be the mama complaining about fingerprints on glass, or  the one who wanted all the toys to be out of sight in case company stops by. Here in the Knopp household you could very easily be sent flying across the room courtesy of a plastic tea cup. When I was a nanny before I had kids, I adored the little hand prints the kids made on my car windows. I love them even more now. That means I have little people and little people are the best. They don't care if you wear lipstick, they don't care if you're sporting the same yoga pants as yesterday. They are simple, they just want to be with you. How cool is that?



This is what we've been enjoying...

Gabe's first day of preschool.

I just LOVE this last picture of him.

His preschool is great. Isaac went for two years and now Gabe is starting his second year. Gabe loves it. The way he can't wait to show me his schoolwork as soon as he gets in the car is absolutely adorable. His mouth going a mile a minute talking about all he did that morning. It melts me heart. He's such a mellow kid so to see him this excited about something is really sweet.

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Shopping with my girl. We do it up big. You can find us at Hobby Lobby or Target. We know how to party.

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 Tea parties.

 Even if they were interrupted by a phone call or two. She's a busy girl, what can I say?

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Reading books, cuddling and being silly with my boy. I love this time during the day. Somehow Gabe and I have found this snippet of time, just the two of us. While Selah naps and big brother is at school I get to give him all of me. It's pretty darn special.




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I enjoyed the warmth of two little bodies in bed with me while daddy was out of town. I loved waking up in the darkness, all of us intertwined. Listening to that dreamy sound of my littles sleeping peacefully. There was a time when I would watch them for what seemed like hours while they slept. Watching them now made me wonder when I stopped doing that.  I didn't realize just how much I missed it and I'm making a promise to do it again. To watch them sleep, to count their breaths, to watch that little chest rise and fall.


I am aware a day will come when the opportunity to simply walk into their room and gaze lovingly won't always be so easy to do.They will grow up, they will move away. That's they way it's supposed to be. I really do want them to grow, to be their best, to be grown ups with a spouse and kids of their own someday.  Right now they are with me and I will drink in every moment of them so that when they are no longer here I will have no regrets. I'm right where I want to be. I'm so very thankful for that.

Goodnight, friends. 

XOXO,
Angie