Friday, September 16, 2011

Where I Want To Be

I was never the outspoken one.  Quiet, people pleaser, never one to ruffle any feathers. I was awkward in school, didn't belong to any certain clique.  Another face in the crowd. I'm not complaining, I liked it that way.  I've always been more of a people watcher than a look at me type anyway. I'm a late bloomer, still blooming in fact. I mean, seriously, I'm just now venturing out from having more than three hairstyles...down, ponytail, bun-type thing. I bought lipstick for the first time this year. Yes, I am 33. And I've worn it once. I didn't go to college, never really felt like I found my groove.

But this? This mama thing? I love it. I feel like it's my thing. I'm not saying I'm good at it, I'm just saying I love it.  I knew I would never be the mama complaining about fingerprints on glass, or  the one who wanted all the toys to be out of sight in case company stops by. Here in the Knopp household you could very easily be sent flying across the room courtesy of a plastic tea cup. When I was a nanny before I had kids, I adored the little hand prints the kids made on my car windows. I love them even more now. That means I have little people and little people are the best. They don't care if you wear lipstick, they don't care if you're sporting the same yoga pants as yesterday. They are simple, they just want to be with you. How cool is that?

This is what we've been enjoying...

Gabe's first day of preschool.

I just LOVE this last picture of him.

His preschool is great. Isaac went for two years and now Gabe is starting his second year. Gabe loves it. The way he can't wait to show me his schoolwork as soon as he gets in the car is absolutely adorable. His mouth going a mile a minute talking about all he did that morning. It melts me heart. He's such a mellow kid so to see him this excited about something is really sweet.


Shopping with my girl. We do it up big. You can find us at Hobby Lobby or Target. We know how to party.


 Tea parties.

 Even if they were interrupted by a phone call or two. She's a busy girl, what can I say?


Reading books, cuddling and being silly with my boy. I love this time during the day. Somehow Gabe and I have found this snippet of time, just the two of us. While Selah naps and big brother is at school I get to give him all of me. It's pretty darn special.


I enjoyed the warmth of two little bodies in bed with me while daddy was out of town. I loved waking up in the darkness, all of us intertwined. Listening to that dreamy sound of my littles sleeping peacefully. There was a time when I would watch them for what seemed like hours while they slept. Watching them now made me wonder when I stopped doing that.  I didn't realize just how much I missed it and I'm making a promise to do it again. To watch them sleep, to count their breaths, to watch that little chest rise and fall.

I am aware a day will come when the opportunity to simply walk into their room and gaze lovingly won't always be so easy to do.They will grow up, they will move away. That's they way it's supposed to be. I really do want them to grow, to be their best, to be grown ups with a spouse and kids of their own someday.  Right now they are with me and I will drink in every moment of them so that when they are no longer here I will have no regrets. I'm right where I want to be. I'm so very thankful for that.

Goodnight, friends. 



  1. This post is what I think blogging is all about. Telling your story. Someday you may want to have a book made out of your posts. I have plans to do that.
    I gave up alot, I should say we gave up alot for me to be able to stay at home with my kids. I will never regret that. I think your post is just so sweet. Those pictures of the tea party are adorable.
    Not only good pictures but the tea party is adorable. Your little ones are sooooo cute. That little girl.......those cheeks. I have the star hanging in my LV. It started out a different color but it looks just like yours now. I also bought the same tea set for my little granddaughter Mabel. Do you scrapbook?

  2. I found your blog from the link to your nuggets. I just started reading it, and I love it already! I was going to follow, but don't want to intrude if it's really just for family. Either way, your kids are adorable :)

  3. Please, follow along! Not intruding at all :)

    And, thanks for the adorable kids comment, I think they are pretty darn cute :)